I Love My Mommy and BFF

See that lady over there. Shes pretty awesome and that's my Mom. In case shes reading this, "Hey Mom!! Love ya!!" So after a horrific few days and 2 major breakdowns, I ran to the only place I knew I could go for love,support, and feel safe. I ran to my mommy's house. Amazing no matter how old we get, when things in our lives go to hell the first place we run to is our mom lol.  For me, my mom is the ONLY person in this world that makes me see me for me, and straighten my ass out when I am acting selfish, or like a spoiled brat. Anyone else would feel my wrath and probably get punched in the eye for their troubles. Don't poke the bear when its mad as hell people. I so needed the few hours I was over there with the best friend. We had alot of laughs, smiles, and real talk. I got to rant and let everything off my chest. My mom knows everything I have been through in my life, she knows ME.  She made me realize something tonight. She said to me, "I want to see you happy. You deserve it."  For the first time I realized I never thought I deserved to be happy. I have been punishing myself and others for the wrongs other people have done to me. Its not fair and it hurts not only them, but me. I do deserve to be happy. I do deserve to be loved the right way. I am not a hot mess, just working through my struggles to let the past go. I love you mom, from the bottom of my heart. I do not deserve your support or anything else after all the bad shit I did and put you through. I am thankful God has blessed you with a forgiving heart and I will not never hurt you again. You are my rock, my strength. I love you!!

Awww my best friend, Cassie. Major shout outs to her. I know at times she wonders why in hell God put me in her life lol. I love this girl as a sister. She is always there for me and is quick to make me smile. We both have been through alot of the same things in life, so we can understand each other so much. Though we may not see eye to eye on some things, we support the hell out of each other regardless. Thank you Cassie for always answering your phone and listening to me rant, scream like a madwoman. You are also my rock. You are always there no matter what. You will drop everything on a dime to help me fix whatever situation I am. I am thankful everyday God brought you in my life. We have been through so many things together and we managed to laugh through it all. You are truly my best friend and thank you for always keeping it real with me. I love you babe!!!