Scared and Stressed

Today has been one terrible thing after another. I don't know where to begin. I am so stressed and upset that it is hard to put into words. My hubby got laid off today for how long I don't know. I am worried about paying rent, food, and things we need. How can manage this? We live paycheck to paycheck as it is already. I already went online to file his unemployment claim and he has some places he is going to check out, but in this economy I am scared. God blessed us with receiving our income tax money, so I paid some towards rent and bills, but its not enough by far.


Then I had to visit the eye doctor today. Which I found out I am going to end up losing my vision in my right eye. I just burst into tears and had a full meltdown. I am sure the doctor thought I was going insane. I mean how much bad news can one person take in one day. I have to see an eye specialist, but the doctor has no hope that laser surgery is going to work on me. Its just a part of my CRF. It starts just causing chaos with your body. I feel so hopeless and scared right now. Where do I go from here? How will we survive? How will I take care of my children? I know I need to leave it in God's hands because he has a plan, but I can't help stressing and worrying.


Since finding out I have CRF, I have took it in stride. I have the symptoms, but I deal with it. I never thought I could lose my vision. Its starting to hit home how sick I really am and I am scared. I am scared of what the future holds. Will I be around when my kids graduate, when they get married, have kids of their own? Their is no answers for those question because God only knows.


If you are reading this please pray for my family. We need all the prayers we can get right now. Thank you for listening.

Me In My New Stunner Shades