As most of you know, my twins are not my husbands bio kids. Though he treats them like his own. Now I HATE that phrase, "baby daddy". If you are over the age of 30 please stop using it. It sounds trashy and ghetto. I personally use, "kids dad" or "kids father". Anyways my ex and I have a unique situation. We started going out when I was 13 years old until he moved elsewhere. We stayed in contact, in and out throughout the years. We got back together 7 years ago when he came back.
In a year time I got pregnant with our twins. Long story short, in late 2010 I found out he had been cheating on me for 10 months! Had this woman around my kids and even around me. It was too much for me and I left him. I was completely heartbroken down to my soul. I had known this man and his family for over 20 plus years, and for him to do that, it just about killed me. To make it worse the woman KNEW we was engaged, living together, and had kids. So that, in my eyes, makes her a whore. Sorry, but it is what it is. You break up someones family, karma catches you one day. What gets me is if your cheating with someones else spouse, if he leaves his spouse, what makes you think he is going to be faithful to you? So couple months down the road he ends up marrying her, which I found amusing. By then I was dating my husband, but it still hurt me.
So you read all that to get to the here and now. Because of the twins I have to maintain contact with him. All I want to discuss with him is our kids. However he thinks just because we have children together, that he can still have sex with me. Say what?? Erm negative. Not to mention I have seen him with other females he is having sex with on the side. The problem is I do still have love for him, I am just not in love with him anymore. After knowing someone 24 years its hard to just shut someone out of your life. He is NO good for me period. We have to much bad past between us. Alot of good of course, but when the bad hit it was awful. I am conflicted because when I talk to him I want to believe him and he means what he says. But deep down I know it is all lies and I don't know this man anymore. I am so over the drama and his attempt to keep me emotional involved with him.
