Sorry I have been slacking on writing. Alot of things are going on and its been a sad few days for me. My oldest daughter, Briana, was committed to MHRC (mental health resources) for 90 days. Her sister found a letter in the bathroom saying that she wanted to kill everybody in the house, yes including the kids. That she had friends that would help her carry this plan out. Needless to say Kalika was hysterical thinking that her sister was going to take her and everyone else out. Briana was diagnosed at a early age with bipolar disorder. It runs on my side of the family, especially in the females. That is why most of my family has a serious problem with drugs and alcohol. I have had it for a long time, but it wasn't until recently I finally started treating it correctly. I am feeling guilty because she got this from me, my gene pool.
Briana is not taking any meds and not getting counseling at all. For the last year I have been raising hell about it, but it fell on deaf ears. So I guess her threatening to wipe out your household gets your attention. It didn't have to come down to that. But your such a self-absorbed bitch, you only care about yourself and YOUR kids right? I don't care who's child it is, but if they need help for cripes sake get them help. Briana is completely miserable living under your roof. She has 3 different homes she could go to, but no to keep up false pretenses you make her suffer under your ego. I have said it many times and I will say it again. One day all the things you do to people will come back to you. That I promise.
Now I am sitting here sad, angry, and helpless. Theres nothing I can do for my child. I want to break her out of there and just run away. I want to see a smile on her face. I want to hear her call me, "Mom". I want the guilt of passing down tainted genes to go away. I wish I could take it all away from her. I would gladly take her pain so she wouldn't feel more sting of its sharp claws. All I can do is pray harder than ever right now.
I Miss You!!!!!
